Friday, September 25, 2009

Patterns & Methods


This watercolor is from a romance novel I painted several years ago. I had so much freedom with this piece. Would I choose watercolor, airbrush, or pastel. For this piece I decided on watercolor. Very much like acting choices. Will I choose The Method, Misner's Technique or pattern a dozen physical quirks to find my way in ? Pick up a small piece of something there, open up an emotion here, I have such freedom! So many patterns and methods!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Breaking Barriers


Broke through a barrier yesterday! I had prepared for a crying scene audition for 5 days. Yesterday I had to deliver. I wasn't exactly sure if I could pull up what I needed to get to 'the place'. I think I did pretty great! I didn't quite get to the sobbing level I acheived in rehearsal, but overall it was really good. The way in for me was a song. I went in to the hallway. The waiting area was busy and distracting. Once by myself I started to sing softly "Because HE Lives". I can never get to the "I can face the future" part before the words are stuck in my throat. That song along with preparation, preparation, preparation, so much dialog!!! I think I reached a new level of artistic excellence. When I was called in everything was right there, at the ready. Kim Bassinger says, "As an actress, you have to come to a point of jumping over your fears and going through the glass doors." Yes, I walked right through to the other side.

Monday, September 14, 2009


Awesome things are happening! I've had 4 auditions in 6 days! The journey on the Texas Highways has been rainy but inspiring! I bought the Bible on tape by Gregory Peck. I'm driving , then all of a sudden I'm Scout sitting on the porch swing with Atticus teaching me how to wear the armor of God. Very cool! The sun peeks out every now and then; Just long enough to see a poodle with a ball on it's nose in the clouds, or is that a bear? My first stop on Wed. is the Palormar Hotel in Dallas for a film about Texans in a Texaco ex-pat compound in Trinidad. My character is unhappy and aloof. I think I did great! We'll see. Next day, Thursday, to Arlington where I revealed a lot of things about myself (on tape even) I usually keep private. But it was very freeing! I think I feel better. Friday was a free day in Dallas just strolling and taking in the sights. Saturday was a very Texan baby shower. So many characters, Even got a hair-do for my Texas Secretary character I'll use on Monday. Sunday with Del Shores, "Daddy's Dyin Who's Got The Will?" and "Sordid Lives". WOW !!! Great stuff. Wonderful experience. Drove home on Sunday evening in the gray rain, gray sky and gray road. Definitely need new contacts soon! Today I went to Austin for a "Friday Night Lights" audition. I sure felt like I naled it, I hope so.

Staying in this evening and catching up on home life. Life is good!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Magnified Pale


September first is magnified in Texas. It's when the air holds the warmth of the summers heat into the afternoons sunlight. Every color turnes into a shade of pale gray. All lonely things are magnified now. There have been no auditions for me since July 7th. I think of Jesus, He knows my thoughts and keeps me from fading away. I don't want to know the future anymore. I only want to erase the soft decay of my dreams, draining the purpose from the marrow of my bones. It's unspoken hope, magnified.